Hard Work

"Hard work: I don't like it"

That's what I've had written on this post for a long time, just that, in draft form. It's like I can see some vague prize in the distance for equally vague "hard work" but it isn't enough motivation to do anything. As a result I don't really like hard work. More logical analysis tells me I should think differently. If I take this blog for example, has required quite a large amount of work, more individual chunks of work, but overall hard work none the less. My vague prize hasn't been achieved in a conventional sense, I haven't received stardom as we as so often told. Not even money or recognition. Even so I think I've achieved something deeper, I've achieved some satisfaction. Satisfaction for just doing work? That seems silly, like hard work for the sake of hard work. Although perhaps that explains the addictiveness of simple games.

Take angry birds for an example, the reward for firing agitated birds is pretty meaningless stars (perhaps they are angry because they are jealous of their naturally flighted brethren, but that's an irrelevant side note, shut up brain). Where was I? Meaningless rewards are nevertheless something we want, for complex machines we are pretty easy to fool to be honest. Note to self, award myself gold stars...

Wasting Time

Why do I waste so much time? We all do it, come in, find the nearest internet connection and plug ourselves in. Every time I look at the clock it has jumped ahead, like its waiting for me to look away before changing itself. Now that would be impressive time travelling if it wasn't for the fact I was just wasting my time. I'd love to question the idea of wasting time and throw up a clever point that all time is wasted but I'd just be trying to save face. I find myself looking back and wondering where it all went, not being able to show anything for the time that's so magically disappeared. I find this endlessly frustrating but day after day I do it. And I know its irresponsible, but I even do it during exam periods (like now).

Note to self, do something useful tomorrow...